That Might Burn a Little

The constant hangover lasted about two days.  I appreciate all of the margarita recipes sent my way.

Not sure if my body just needed a couple of days to get used to poison.  There is some empirical evidence to support this theory.  See college years.  Also see tequila.  Also see other things we won’t get into.

By no means do I think all is hunky dory.  See using the phrase “hunky dory.”  All of the warnings on my new medicines, coupled with the long lists of side effects on the waivers I signed for radiation and chemo, tell me that fatigue, dizziness, nausea, dry mouth, gingivitis, dandruff, hives, rash, constipation, toe fungus, death, jaundice, random accents, and death are all probable. Could be possible. I didn’t read them that closely.   It was a lot of reading.  The anti-nausea pills have the right idea.  The pill bottle has all of these extra yellow warning stickers.
“May Cause Drowsiness!”
“May Cause Headaches!”
“May Cause Dizziness!”
“May Cause Death!”

First, these are tiny little pills.  That’s a lot of may causing.  Second, maybe nausea is not so bad, considering.

The first new symptom to show up happened after the second radiation treatment.  That afternoon, I had a bit of a burning sensation on the side of my head.  That was fun.  Though in a way it did help me confirm that the machine that spins around me actually is doing something, and is not just the machine that goes “ping!”

The second new symptom happened today.  And it was not technically a symptom.  Jill pointed out the cross hatch mask marks on my forehead after radiation.  When they didn’t go away in 20 minutes, I worried briefly this was some new permanent pattern burned into my face.  I have been a strong opponent of face tattoos, so how ironic would that be?  But it did go away eventually,

I am settling into the routine of all this.  The technicians vetoed my request for headphones, as they wouldn’t work well with the mask.  And with my small irrational fear that things are now getting burned into my head, I am fine with that answer.  But they did tell me I could play music on my phone and just put it by my side so I can hear it.

So I built a radiation play list.  You may see the themes that run through this, so if you have any suggestions on what to add, send them my way.  The starting list:
“Radioactive”, Imagine Dragons
“Glow”, Sylvan Esso
“Hurt”, Johnny Cash
“Forecast Calls for Pain”, Robert Cray
“Stuck in a Moment You Can’t Get Out Of”, U2, and
“Don’t Give Up”, Peter Gabriel.  Because I’m an optimist.

And by the way, this is the actual playlist.  Plus Breezeblocks.  Because I like that song and have no idea what it’s about.  Could be radiation.

Abby suggested something from My Chemical Romance, but that might be more for my chemo playlist.